February 2012
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Running In Circles (III)
III. Empathy
I would spend weeks on end starting and scrapping stories to the point that I would eventually give up on them all completely, conceding to the thought that maybe I wasn’t as smart as I had originally thought. Perhaps I wasn’t as prolific as previously posited. It was a concerning thought to carry, for if I bought into it I would lose a large chunk of my own identity....
mcdandsarcasm asked: BUT ONE IS NOT BOOBS, THATS JUST BOOB.
January 2012
2 posts
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Someday This Could All Be Yours
I just placed an order for a physical copy of the album Someday This Could All Be Yours (Vol. 1) by The Paper Chase. The Paper Chase spent a few years as my “favorite band” as it were, between 2004 and 2006 (When I discovered Bomb The Music Industry!). They still remain one of my favorites, and in fact my second favorite band behind BTMI!. It’s actually a little bit ridiculous to...
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StarF Raps: CALLING ALL ARTISTS! →
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StarF is getting a tattoo!
It’s something I’ve wanted to do for quite some time. The main reason I haven’t yet is actually just that I’ve never really had the spare money… But all that’s about to change, because I’ve been saving some money for Nerdapalooza, and I decided that since I’m going to…
December 2011
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Remember Not To Blink
Here you go again.
Is it that time already? I ask myself again and again when I reach this point. It seems so strange to be here again. When was the last time I wrote anything meaningful? I no longer create stories, I just rant about ranting about ranting. Where is the substance?
It’s all gone.
I know, that’s why I’m here writing this, so what, what do I do now? Have an...
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neurotic-waffle asked: White! Just because I think you can learn the most about a person when they tell you who they think they are.
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Ideas, ideas everywhere, and not a drop to think
The excitement:
I think I finally thought up the perfect idea for my life. I think I finally came up with the thing that could possibly propel me into the fantasy life I’ve always dreamt up in my spare time. Even if it doesn’t acquire me fame, it will acquire me recognition to some degree to be sure. And most of all, it will be my own personal greatest accomplishment. Strangely...
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Abree is my favorite person!
I decided to make a post about it, because I felt like it. And cause she would see it, and then maybe be a little less womp tonight. And I put it on my main blog, not one of my silly other little blogs that no one ever sees, so you just know she’s important! Well duh, she’s my favorite person. And if your name is Abree but you’re not the same Abree I’m talking about, stop...
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A "day off"?
I’ve never heard of it.
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DAMPENING
It’s all a lie.
It’s all true.
It’s all unreal.
It’s all surreal.
It’s none of the above.
It’s everything and nothing.
Give in, give up, give it all away.
Until there is nothing left.
There once was a man with a book full of poems. He read a new one every day. A beautiful muse each step of the tome. Until he eroded the beauty away. Monotony strikes in...
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King Of The Shill
A masterful work of art crafted by the sheer absence of brilliance, even an idiot with the right tools can create something beautiful if they have enough time. I am the idiot in my abyss, running back and forth between pillars and posting up notices: “Where have I been!?” I wonder and panic and faint again, wondering where I’ll go next.
It’s no mystery, I live in a state...
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Oh man, oh man.
I’m almost done listening to “Marc Sings For You,” which if you weren’t aware is where Marc With A C will make you a personalized recording of eight songs, four requests and four randoms… I just have to say, this may be one of the best things I’ve ever purchased. It’s so personalized and perfect. I mean I love that sort of thing, maybe it’s not your...
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StarF's Laws of Texting
1. If you are having a serious conversation, at the crucial point your phone will decide not to send the text, and neglect to alert you that it has failed to send. You won’t notice this has happened for at least an hour.
2. If you are having a serious conversation with someone and are anxious about their response, the next text you receive will always be someone else with something...
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The Girl From Yesterday
I spaced out, it was a good question. Not a terribly difficult question to answer but a good question for her to ask nonetheless. The hard part was going to be finding the right way to word my answer, because I knew this could turn into something horrendous if I picked out the wrong combination of words. It seemed an injustice to me, for I knew that my reasoning was not only sound but was a...
November 2011
3 posts
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Nostalgia, nostalgia
Nostalgia is stupid, and so is looking back on the past and thinking too hard about it. But sometimes it’s a fun pastime, if you can keep yourself from delving into the “What if…” section of it. I’ve learned through a series of mental torture experiments what it’s like to lean too heavily on the “what if”s, and have managed to be able to rid myself...
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Swallowed Whole
A cold darkness enveloped him as he sat on the edge of eternity, So we meet again. He stared out into the abyss, now too familiar with it to feel anything other than boredom. Boredom, he thought, boredom. The situation too trite to even warrant proper description, the severity of the monotony tearing away at his psyche. Boredom… he kept repeating the words in his head, he had too much to do...
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Running In Circles (II)
II. Inspiration
The air around me started to sting my ears, letting me know that it was time to finally give it up for the night. I had been sitting outside far too long, staring wearily into the sky just waiting for inspiration to strike. What started as a notion to gaze upon a sunset eventually devolved into a problematic game of chicken with my own psyche, unable to shake the feeling that...
October 2011
2 posts
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A place to sleep
I grappled with the idea of transmuting these thoughts into another pointless story, but lately realized that all of my writing has mostly been just that: Random thoughts and feelings converted into stories, rather than actual stories. This is something I tried to remedy with the first installment of Running In Circles, which I actually sat down to think about and write as a real story, rather...
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Running In Circles (I)
I. Criticism
“You’ll never get anywhere like that.”
Choking back a bit of rage I clenched my pen tightly in my fist and took a deep breath, allowing myself to stretch back and relax myself before voluntarily asking why, and thus inducing even more annoyance. I know better than to go here, I thought, just ignore it and keep writing. I hunched back over my notebook and scooted...
September 2011
9 posts
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Room Without A Window
“What time is it?” he asked casually, his hands sitting comfortably in his pockets. He clearly didn’t need to know fast, he was just curious. Perhaps the answer would invoke a reaction out of him, and he would realize he didn’t have as much time as he thought. Time is money, he thought to himself. Just like money, people get a little too comfortable when they think...
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Filters
“No floor selected.” an automated voice chimes in from the speaker above my head. Frustrated, I look back at the panel and examine the two buttons even closer. One of them is labeled OPEN, the other is simply labeled 5. I had just tried pressing OPEN but to no avail, every time the same robotic voice would tell me that I had not selected a floor. I couldn’t remember how I ended...
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Facebook killed the Myspace star
Social networking, it’s become an integral part of being alive in this day and age. Sure, anyone can get by just fine without being a part of one of the popular social networks, but they’re still going to be missing out on a lot of information. If all of their friends are part of a social network, they’re probably going to feel left out as information simply passes them by,...
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I have a wait problem, I'm impatient
That’s right, it’s another lovely weight loss blog from StarF! I know you must be getting sick of these, so I’m going to hold back on making them, or at least not elaborate too much, because really how much can I say? Blah blah blah, I’ve been working out, this is what I’m doing, here’s how well it’s working. You don’t need a weekly update that...
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From The Ashes
“I think my brain is breaking down on me,” she started, sitting slumped over in a computer chair, her head down supported by one hand, “I mean, not in an I’m going to snap and murder everyone kind of way, or an I’m going to become a brain-dead vegetable kind of way… Something else.” She spoke softly with a sense of fleeting urgency, as if she knew that it...
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neurotic-waffle asked: How'd you get so awesome?
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Nothing Major
Reaching over to the wall and feeling around for a light switch that I could never seem to find right away despite the damn thing never moving, I stopped a moment to just stand in the darkness. The room enveloped me with a hidden familiarity. My eyes had not yet adjusted, and looking around I could only make out vague shapes of things I could identify on memory alone. There were a few LED’s...
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Gain HP: Versus Mode
A new challenger approaches!
So in my mission to lose weight, I’ve had a lot of ups and downs. I’ve noticed over the past couple of years that I’ll get really motivated and start exercising consistently for a little while, maybe a few months, and then just sort of stop. And it’s enough to keep my weight at bay, or at least fluctuating between “I’m sort of okay...
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I ate the whole box
Okay, before I actually get into the rant I want to talk about, let me first say something about an apparently hilarious phrase that I keep seeing popping up around the internets. Every once in awhile, I’ll see someone post this:
I love how, in scary movies, the person yells out, “Hello?” As if the bad guy is gonna be like, “Yeah, I’m in the kitchen! Want a...
August 2011
9 posts
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One Dollar
How many things can you do with one dollar?
Probably a lot, come to think of it. One dollar is versatile. One dollar is powerful. But one dollar is also strangely insignificant. You can throw away a dollar on something you don’t really need and never look back at that transaction. It’s as if it never even happened or mattered.
Everyone is willing to part with one dollar, it’s...
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Dreams, nightmares, and the in between
Whenever someone approaches me and wishes to start a conversation, but their opening statement is “I had the craziest dream last night,” I generally tune them out immediately. I don’t know if it’s just me, but stories about your dreams are really boring. Sometimes you’ll start telling me and it turns out to be somewhat interesting, and that’s generally only when...
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Revelations
Time: 3:04 AM
It’s dark outside, but that’s to be expected. As I observe my surroundings, the only one here for miles, I set the cruise control and prepare for a dull ride home. I don’t bother setting the cruise control above the speed limit - I’m in no rush and do not desire to be pulled over. I’ve been passing signs that warn that there are extra cops on patrol...
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When music will move you
It always bothered me immensely whenever I heard some teenager say the phrase “music is my life,” which was usually portrayed as “MUSIC = LIFE <3 <3 <3.” It made me want to slap them upside the head. Come to think of it, it still sort of does. The reason being is that most of the people that say this don’t know anything about music. Now don’t get me...
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Artsy Indie Game Syndrome
WARNING: This blog post will contain various spoilers about the various games talked about.
So I’ve noticed a trend recently in gaming, and that’s that many games try really hard to be “art.” This is not necessarily a bad thing if the games are successful in their endeavors and hit their marks (See: Limbo, Braid, etc.), but when the game falls flat and fails to be...
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Five Rock Albums You Should Hear
So recently I’ve been listening to a lot of punk/rock music, both rediscovering old albums I love and finding new stuff to listen to, here’s five great rock albums that I think are worth checking out.
Driftless Pony Club - Buckminister
Year: 2011
So this is the newest thing I’ve listened to on this list, because truth be told I only started listening to it yesterday, and...
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Bomb The Music Industry! - Hurricane Waves
Took...
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Comfortable Nightmares
“You just don’t question a good thing. Everyone knows that.”
“Everyone knows that huh? Okay so what makes a thing good!?”
“You just have to realize when things are going well, and accept that. And for you things are going pretty great, you have to admit at least that much.”
“Says who!? You? Maybe my friends? Great, that’s what I’ve...
My ears are ringing (Or "How I learned to be...
I just walked through the door into my room, not wearing pants, wearing a different shirt than I left in, my original shirt soaked (And don’t get me wrong, I don’t mean damp, moist, or wet, I mean S-O-A-K-E-D) in the sweat which was the product of the insane night I had just experienced. In my other hand was half a sandwich a little too spicy for my taste, but too delicious for me to...
July 2011
5 posts
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The Writer's Lament (IV)
(I) (II) (III)
IV. Sarah Don’t Go
Sarah and I had begun dating and things had been going well, or so I had figured. When I stopped to think about it I realized we never even qualified what we were doing as “dating,” or signified that we were in a relationship. We just…were. We never discussed it, neither of us asked the other out, and there was no Facebook relationship...
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– Nerdapalooza 2011 (via princessrex)
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Heartbreak & Hangovers
I woke up with a familiar throbbing sensation in my head, a biological mechanism to scold me for drinking too much previously. It would keep telling me over and over again things I already knew, and I would plead for it to go away, vowing never to drink again if this agony would just quit. Then as soon as it did, I would forget all about my promise to never drink again and remember the reason I...
June 2011
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I was lost
It all makes sense now…
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“Where am I?”
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“But this is…”
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A collection of memories, all contained, all together, neatly stacked into piled and arranged onto walls. I spin around and try to collect all the data even if I can’t possibly process it all. It seeps into my mind and started to pool in the back of my thoughts - Where am I?...
We could all do better than we're doing right now
What are your goals? Your hopes? Your dreams? No, that’s a little too forward, let’s face it, we don’t really know each other all too well. It’s not fair to ask you what the endgame of your life is already, so let’s stop and get to know each other first. Hi, my name is… well, that’s not important. Names are labels and labels are boring. Let’s not...
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“SHOW YOUR TITS! SHOW YOUR TITS!”
This is the refrain I heard at my first ‘punk’ show. I was 13 and it was the first time that my parents agreed to let me go to a show with my best friend Ian and his mom driving us. I heard this whenever a girl…