StarF drives a lot and doesn't sleep

neurotic-waffle asked: White! Just because I think you can learn the most about a person when they tell you who they think they are.

Three facts about my personality! Whew, okay, let’s go:

• My personality on the whole was built around a few major keypoints: Music, the internet, and my closest friends while growing up. Music is a pretty obvious (Well, I guess they’re all obvious) and self-explanatory one, but I guess I can expound a little. When I was growing up I was pretty much just really dumb and your generic stupid teenager filled with pointless angst who was always ‘woe is me.’ Like every other teenager of this archetype I connected heavily with music I figured I could “relate” to, this lead to my first few favorite bands being the ever so generic list of Linkin Park, Disturbed, System of a Down, and other stuff like that. Eventually through heavy use of the internet and the phase I went through as a total and complete music elitist (I guess I still have a little bit of that in me, too), I ended up expanding to ridiculous lengths. Since during these weird transition periods in my life I was still connected heavily to music in a “this is what I’m going to cope with” way, I ended up adopting a lot of odd and often clashing life-lessons through songs. Eventually I ended up settling on taking after bands like Bomb The Music Industry! and 311 who basically say: Hey, sometimes shit sucks, but we’ve got it pretty damn good. Time to be happy. I’m glad that my musical personality settled there. Also this is getting really out of hand as an answer and a little unorganized. Okay, let’s talk the internet! I was on the internet from a very early age, I believe I started browsing on my own when I was about nine, and had been messing around on computers since way earlier with my dad. My first introductions to internet communities were through StarCraft and Newgrounds. My dad bought me StarCraft when it first came out and I instantly became addicted to it. I actually became really good for not even being a teenager at the time. So good in fact that I had joined an online clan known as the Lost Minions. I went by StarFire68[LM], and at the time it was a big deal to me. It was probably the very first time in my life that I felt I really belonged to something that was bigger than me, and I feel like it’s where I really started to adopt a lot of the personality traits I still keep around today. I remember always being known as the “peacemaker,” trying to work out inner-squabbles in the clan, which is silly because that clan only lasted until I was about 14 years old I think. Still at the time it was a big deal and taught me a lot about communities and loyalty and such. Then there was Newgrounds, I remember my cousin introduced me to it when I was around 10, and I started watching their videos. Eventually I found my way to the forum and began posting. My first posts were absolutely awful. I looked back at them once and wanted to just go kick myself for being so stupid. But hey, I was a dumb kid. Newgrounds taught me many things (Such as the importance of spelling and grammar, I learned that one quickly), and gave me a place to bring any concerns or questions that I may have had growing up since I didn’t really have anyone else to talk to (I didn’t really have that many friends and wasn’t generally outgoing at all). It actually worked out quite nicely because all in all the internet is the best place to go to when you want to know something, especially a brutally honest place like Newgrounds. You just get a lot of completely honest and unbiased results. And finally, like anyone, there’s my close friends. As I mentioned I was a pretty derpy kid growing up and wasn’t very outgoing or social. I didn’t really become sociable until halfway through high school. So it was good that I managed to group together four or five really close friends while growing up. And especially Ellie. As much as she really fucked up my life later, she’s responsible for a lot of the way I am now - for better and worse.
• So now that I’ve covered where my personality came from in my opinion (Sort of spasmodically, but covered nonetheless), I guess I need two more facts. Another one is that I feel like my personality has shifted drastically over the years, but has mostly settled down and stabilized. I don’t know if that’s actually accurate, but I feel like the core of who I am now hasn’t significantly been altered in years, and I don’t really see it changing anytime soon either. Actually I guess that’s not totally true, because in the past year I’ve probably become more work-driven and “grown-up” to a certain degree. Damn these changes.
• My personality is really derpy but I mostly like it that way.